For various reasons, the almost-ever-present anxiety has been especially high lately and the struggle has seemed even more difficult. I’ve been turning to my usual helpers: prayer, creativity, painting, distracting, watching “comfort” shows and movies, spending time outside, talking with loved ones, working on genealogy and local hometown history, doing brain retraining and breathing exercises and relaxation techniques.
But still. There’s been one stressful thing after another and…very high anxiety.
Sunday evening, I had my weekly phone call with my cousin, and I asked her what she did that helped her not be afraid all the time. We’ve talked about this sort of thing before, and I know she has a deep faith, and I was fairly certain she would talk about God and faith and trust. And she did.
Her words and her reminders were helpful for me, and one of the things she reminded me about was how God already knows what’s ahead for us. That’s something I remind myself of quite often, but sometimes it helps to hear things from someone else. It can help to hear a thing phrased in a different way or hear it at a specific time when it connects with us on a different level. That’s how it was for me to hear my cousin’s words.
The next day I was texting this same cousin, and my phone added something I hadn’t typed. I ended up taking a screenshot of part of the text and highlighting the phrase added by my phone:
I had intended to type “God already knows all about the car(s) and the finances and what’s ahead” but before I even started on the word what, my phone inserted everything is good.
So it ended up as: “God already knows all about the car(s) and the finances and everything is good.”
Everything is good.
Everything is good.
My phone will sometimes put or change a word it thinks I mean instead of what I actually write, but never has my phone inserted an entire phrase before. I wasn’t touching anything on the screen at all when the words appeared. I hadn’t even put the first letter of the next word I planned to write.
But what a perfect ending to the sentence.
“God already knows all about the car(s) and the finances and everything is good.”
What a perfect message for me during a time of high anxiety.
Everything is good.
And I did take it as a message, a message to me from God. God, who knows my fears and anxieties. God, who knows exactly what’s going on and what’s to come. God, who loves me and wants me to fear not.
I took it as a message and a reminder that God’s got me. Even when hard things are happening.
❤
Ginger Simpson White 