writing, faith, life ~ update October 28

This is the second week of experimenting with posting an update about each area in my blog’s tagline ( writing ~ faith ~ life ) and here’s how the last week has been…

W R I T I N G

Momentum is happening! I’ve been working on the current novel as well as the anthology, and most days this past week I wrote.

But I didn’t write every day. And I finally admitted something to myself.

If I don’t work on the fiction at least for a little while in the morning, then it doesn’t happen at all.

This hasn’t always been the case – although I’d sometimes work on fiction in the mornings, my best writing times actually used to be in the afternoons or at night after supper. But that was then, before my several-years-long break from writing fiction. Since returning to writing, I’ve been all over the place when it comes to timing and routines (or lack thereof), and this week I finally faced the fact that, at least for now, I need to fit fiction into my morning.

Admitting this to myself feels huge. And it means I’m taking steps to make fiction-in-the-morning a habit and a routine.

In addition to mornings, I still often write in the afternoons. But I’m not sure I’ll even try writing in the evenings anymore. My whole evening/night routine has shifted the past year or so and I end my days much earlier than I used to.

Now that I’m trying to implement a new routine, I’m curious to see how it’ll go during the next week.

F A I T H

As I mentioned in my last post, I’m participating in a challenge this month to write out the book of Ephesians.

I continued this week and now I have only a few more verses to copy before it’s finished. Writing Ephesians this way has been a blessing.

L I F E

This past week had book club day, with book talk and general chatter and pizza and other good stuff. I started attending the monthly book club in June, and I’m so grateful I pushed past my social anxiety to go the first time… and to keep going each month.

Painting and reading and relaxing were all part of my week too, and some days were sunny and some were dreary.

Tomorrow is our 30th wedding anniversary, so this week has also held times of thinking back over the decades and remembering what was going on this week back in 1988… the family and friends coming to town, the nervous excitement about getting married and starting a new life, the last-minute preparations.

My husband and I are having a low-key celebration of a special dinner tomorrow night. We used to always take a trip out of town for our anniversary, but we haven’t traveled for the past several years (for a few reasons, a main one being things going on with my health).

It’s okay that we’re not doing anything fancy, but simply being together – because being together is the important thing. Our marriage has experienced ups and downs as I suppose all marriages do, and we went through a particularly rough time for a while over a decade ago, but I’m grateful and blessed to be married to my best friend and the one person who never lets me down and accepts me for all I am (weirdness and quirks and all).

Spending a quiet evening with him, doing nothing extra-special, just enjoying the company and comfort and coziness and love that’s stood through so many years… that makes my heart sing.

That brings me joy.

writing, faith, life ~ update October 21…

The “tagline” for my blog is writing ~ faith ~ life … and I’ve decided to experiment with posting a little weekly update that covers each of these areas. I’ll try it out and see how it goes, and how it feels, and just take it a step at a time.

So here’s the update for this past week…

W R I T I N G

I got some work done on the novel, and that was my only writing focus – and I feel conflicted about that.

On one hand, yay for making progress with the novel!

On the other hand, I didn’t do anything with the anthology, and the only blog post I put up was another printable (which didn’t require much actual writing).

It feels like I didn’t spend as much time writing as I could have. I wasn’t as productive with the writing as I wanted to be.

In thinking about moving forward in a way that feels better, I’ve decided I want to try a more structured schedule (again) than what I’ve had lately.

F A I T H

Time in prayer steadies me, comforts me, sustains me… and this week reminded me of that truth again and again.

This month I’m participating in a challenge to write out the book of Ephesians. I write a few verses each day and use a variety of tools to go deeper into the book, and this week I continued with that study.

This week I was reminded, daily, of the importance of my personal relationship with Jesus. I was also reminded (again) that I’m not good at apologetics (for a variety of reasons).

And I was reminded to take my life moment by moment, staying in the present moment, not looking too far back or too far forward.

L I F E

After summer weather continuing into autumn, we suddenly seem to have jumped to more winter-like temperatures. (I hope things swing back a bit so we can experience autumn.)

We were having to run the air conditioner just a few days ago and now we’re running the central heat. Not even a full week passed between them – and it used to be that we could go for a few weeks without running the a/c or the heat (and save some bucks on the electric bill) … but the past couple of years have been different.

I won’t get into ideas or theories about the weather changes, but I’ll just say things are not the way they were for most of my life, and I’ve been alive for quite a while.

Our kitty has sought lap-time on these cooler mornings.

My husband had the day off work on Monday, and didn’t have to go to work on Friday until early afternoon, so we had extra days this week of relaxing mornings and taking-it-easy time.

Even though it’s cold outside right now and I get grumpy if I think about the weird temperature changes, the sun is shining and the sky is a beautiful blue…

And I am grateful.

 

trust is always a thing…

As the anthology seems closer to becoming a reality, it feels like I have to trust even more that the writing will come.

As the new novel gets closer to being finished, it feels like I have to trust even more that the story will come.

As I continue to go through the days – and continue to deal with my lifelong stuff of anxiety, self-doubts, feeling like few people care – it feels like I have to trust even more that Jesus is with me.

Maybe it’s not that I’m really having to trust more. Probably it only feels that way because this is now, this moment… and past times and past feelings can feel less intense (sometimes) when we look back.

In reality, trust has always been a “thing” for me, whether it’s trusting God, trusting other people, trusting myself, trusting my voice and my writing.

Earlier this month, I made myself a small, easy TRUST bracelet.

I’ve been wearing it every day.

Around 20 years ago, I made a similar TRUST bracelet because I wanted a visual reminder to trust God, trust Jesus, on my faith journey. Because, like I said, trust has always been a thing for me. And back then, as it has been through so many periods in my life, my anxiety was amped up big-time.

(I believe there are many reasons for the severe anxiety issues I’ve had most of my life… and trust definitely plays a part.)

That particular trust bracelet was on a gold chain, dainty, easy to wear. After daily use for a very long time, I put it away. When I decided recently I wanted to return to wearing a daily reminder of TRUST, that old bracelet wasn’t an option anymore.

So I decided to make myself a new one. Inexpensive. Simple. Easy.

The main thing is the message it carries, the reminder whenever I glance at my hand.

TRUST.

God is with me. Jesus has my back. I’m never alone. The writing I’m given to write will come.

I see my bracelet with the simple block letters. I’m reminded of what I already know.

And I remember to trust.

It’s not always easy for me. But it’s oh so necessary.