trusting it will be provided…

I’m diving deeply into self-care right now. Because I’m not feeling my best physically.

Because my emotions are being stirred.

Clearing is happening – in my physical space as we declutter, toss, rearrange, reorganize.

And clearing energetically and emotionally.

Where will it all lead?

To deeper healing… that’s my hope, and my belief.

But the path to healing isn’t always a smooth or pleasant one.

I’m holding onto trust.

Trusting that all I need will be provided.

And I’m doing a deep-dive into self-care for nourishment, rest, rejuvenation.

Self-care helps in healing.

Self-care helps in trusting.

Self-care helps in getting through to lighter times.

Trust even if you can’t see what’s ahead.

Trust even if you don’t know.

Trust that what you need will be provided.

 

breathing…

My injured right hand (from a fall in January) is still slowly healing. This injury has slowed me down. I was feeling the urge to write more, here and in my journal and on a book project and on my facebook page, but I’m having to be mindful of how much I type (or write by hand). So I’ve had to go at a slow pace with that,

Painting, cleaning the house, even getting dressed and ready to go out somewhere – all take longer than usual because I can’t fully use my right hand yet, the hand I most often rely on.

And then there’s the overall body aching I went through from the hard landing on the hard floor,

And then there’s the emotional adjustment to the changes in my family, and the grief.

The bottom line?

I’ve needed to take more time for physical and emotional rest.

Simply resting.

Simply being.

And sometimes… simply breathing.

Because in the stress and aches and emotions, I can sometimes find myself not really breathing. Well, not breathing fully.

Taking shallow breaths. Or even holding my breath a bit, without even realizing it.

So I’m trying to go back to the basics, back to remembering something I know helps so much.

Being aware of my breath.

Taking time to really breathe.

Full inhale.

Full exhale.

Breath shifts energy.

Breath shifts emotions.

Breath is life.

word of the year…

I was never good at making (or keeping) New Years resolutions. But choosing a word for the year? That felt right for me.

In 2012 my guiding word was nourish. And it was a wonderful word which served me well that year. (Actually, it’s a good word to focus on all the time, in all areas of life, but I digress…)

My word for 2013 has been clarity – and holy wow, has this been a year of clarity for me! I can’t even begin to list the ways.

These words chose me. I didn’t choose them. They came to me out of the blue, hitting me on the head, demanding to be chosen. And this has happened months before the actual beginning of the year.

So I wasn’t surprised when my 2014 word-of-the-year landed in my lap, out of the blue, when I wasn’t even thinking about words of the year or anything related to the concept.

It happened about 2 months ago. I suddenly, simply, completely knew what my word for 2014 would be.

It chose me. And it wouldn’t let go.

I started to blog the word before now, but I didn’t. I’ve told a few people already, and posted it in a forum or two. I don’t feel the need to keep my year-word secret, or close to the vest. For me, personally (although it’s different for different people) my word in no way loses ‘power’ when I tell what it is.

If anything, it becomes an even stronger force in my life when I speak it, write it, share it with others.

So I’m saying it here, now…

My word for 2014 is INTEGRATION.

Integration.