As the anthology seems closer to becoming a reality, it feels like I have to trust even more that the writing will come.
As the new novel gets closer to being finished, it feels like I have to trust even more that the story will come.
As I continue to go through the days – and continue to deal with my lifelong stuff of anxiety, self-doubts, feeling like few people care – it feels like I have to trust even more that Jesus is with me.
Maybe it’s not that I’m really having to trust more. Probably it only feels that way because this is now, this moment… and past times and past feelings can feel less intense (sometimes) when we look back.
In reality, trust has always been a “thing” for me, whether it’s trusting God, trusting other people, trusting myself, trusting my voice and my writing.
Earlier this month, I made myself a small, easy TRUST bracelet.
I’ve been wearing it every day.
Around 20 years ago, I made a similar TRUST bracelet because I wanted a visual reminder to trust God, trust Jesus, on my faith journey. Because, like I said, trust has always been a thing for me. And back then, as it has been through so many periods in my life, my anxiety was amped up big-time.
(I believe there are many reasons for the severe anxiety issues I’ve had most of my life… and trust definitely plays a part.)
That particular trust bracelet was on a gold chain, dainty, easy to wear. After daily use for a very long time, I put it away. When I decided recently I wanted to return to wearing a daily reminder of TRUST, that old bracelet wasn’t an option anymore.
So I decided to make myself a new one. Inexpensive. Simple. Easy.
The main thing is the message it carries, the reminder whenever I glance at my hand.
God is with me. Jesus has my back. I’m never alone. The writing I’m given to write will come.
I see my bracelet with the simple block letters. I’m reminded of what I already know.
And I remember to trust.
It’s not always easy for me. But it’s oh so necessary.