Sometimes connecting with joy means taking a break and getting more rest. ‘Cause if we’re exhausted – physically or emotionally – it can sort of block the channel to joy.
(I’m not talking about feeling physically exhausted in that ‘good’ sort of way, like when you’ve had a wonderful day doing something that lights you on fire or has been full of fun or good times with loved ones… I’m talking about the not-so-good kind of being physically exhausted.)
Self-care can help with connecting to joy.
And sometimes self-care is getting more rest.
Today… partly cloudy outside, hot but not blazing. It was very very late when I finally went to sleep last night but I was able to sleep late this morning – which gave me a really late start to my day, but that’s okay because today is a day when I only had a few things planned. And today is a day when I wanted to mostly be in that take-it-easy space.
(fortunately, my schedule allowed for it too)
My husband had an unexpected change at work – nothing bad – and around mid-day he called to tell me he was coming home a few hours early.
Suddenly the afternoon felt sort of like a play day. Or a surprise vacation day.
On his way home, he stopped at a local Tex-Mex restaurant, got my favorite meal, and brought it to me for lunch.
We ate in front of the tv and watched a show we always enjoy watching together.
We’ve just been watching tv and hanging out.
I realize some people would say watching tv isn’t a great way to spend a free afternoon… but I say it’s our life, our free time, and there are shows we enjoy. I’m not going to pretend I don’t like tv and movies. Entertainment in front of the tube has its purpose.
This was a simple way to spend an afternoon. A relaxing way.
But it felt – it has been – an afternoon of joy.
It’s been a low-intensity day. (I’m still dealing with sinus issues, and self-care mode is very much activated.) I’ve been catching up on listening to some online recordings and watching some online videos. There’s so much good stuff. But sometimes I feel overwhelmed because I simply can’t keep up with all of it.
I have to choose and prioritize. I have to let some things go, and be okay with the releasing.
It’s interesting for me to realize how so many of the audios and videos talk about similar themes. There’s a lot of inter-connectedness and overlapping, and it’s fascinating to see synchronicity at work this way.
(because I feel like I’m hearing these things, from so many different people and places, for a reason)
So I’m listening.
Listening for the messages, for what I’m meant to learn from all of this.
It feels important.
I’ve also been painting today.
And again, I listen.
I stand there and I listen to some inner voice (or maybe it’s an outer voice which feels internal) tell me what color to use and where to put it and what to do with it.
Sometimes when I paint, emotions come to the surface, moving through me, to be released.
Today I just felt calm.
And painting – and the sense of inner peace – definitely joyful, both of them.
Sometimes it feels really good to simply feel calm and peace.
The inner peace and calm – the inner quiet – make it easier for me to listen.